For the past few nights, I have been crying myself to sleep:
Hugging my pillow, wrapping myself around my blanket while trying to muffle out
the sounds of my heavy sobs. It has been like this for around 4 days now, and
my lacrimal glands are probably tired. I feel dehydrated and I think I lost a
vast amount of OH-
as I created my alkaline river that flowed out of my eyes, down to my cheeks,
and finally being caught by the already wet pillow case.
And whatever I do, I just can’t stop the teas from flowing.
It’s as if my eyes have a life of their own and will no longer obey the orders
sent to it by my befuddled mind transmitted by my myelinated axons emanating
from the nerve body.
(Again I say, I’m a nurse so sue me for the jargon)
I’m dehydrated, seriously.
Damn it, it’s all her fault: For being so lovable, for being
so beautiful, for being so irresistible. He’s an idiot, a moron, why does she
love him anyway? What so good about him…
Soo-in…
Hyun-woo…
Damn it, I should stop watching Love Story in Harvard right
before bedtime.
----Major Plot Spoilers----
(For people who haven’t watched or finished the series, stop
reading now. Contains major spoilers)
Hong is a real man among the men. He’s love for Soo-in is so
deep that he even sacrificed his license as a lawyer just to help Soo-in. He
has always been behind her, but always one step shorter than his rival, who now
happens to be her husband. I don’t have anything against Hyun-woo, it’s just
that everyone knows that Hong loves her more than anyone could love her in the
whole world.
It’s just that her heart doesn’t belong to him.
----Spoilers End Here----
It doesn’t matter how deep you truly love someone, it you
don’t have their heart, all you can do is watch in the sidelines. Watch as they
get married, have kids, build a home, have a family, have arguments, make up
after that big fight, hug each other when its cold, and care for each other
when they get old.
You can only watch as somebody else lives your happiness for
you.
And that’s why it’s so sad…
I cry myself to sleep for the past nights due to the
emotional roller coaster that I was placed in after watching. It’s amazing the
characters don’t get Myocardial Infarctions, from the stress alone of their
love lives I would’ve died.
So that’s why starting today I will drink a lot of fluids
and electrolytes to replenish the lost alkaline and fluid content in my body.
-Robert
P.S. Although I have finished the show, I think I’ll still
cry myself to sleep for the next few days. All for different reasons now.
P.P.S. Damn… *sighs*
